Canadutch
Well, nothing better than a good day of shopping to remind you how badly you need to diet! *groan* Yesterday me, mom and Xander went shopping at the Mayflower Mall and as much as I tried to convince myself that they are just making the sizes smaller.. I finally gave in and admitted that it was just my ass getting bigger. Good grief! SO, I’ve decided that as soon as I get back to Holland I’m going to diet like mad. well I’m still going to eat like I normally do, that’s not the problem.. I just need to walk and exercise. No way I can start that here though, not when I’m finally back around things I love, like Wendy’s and Toaster Strudels.Anyway, I ended up getting some nice clothes for the summer.. about 4 t-shirts, 3 pairs of capri pants, and 2 new pairs of shoes. I tried like hell to talk Xander into buying a pair of sandles for the summer but he wouldn’t go for it at all. He’s one of those guys who wears sneakers and socks with his shorts.. and he has skinny legs so it looks really weird. He wouldn’t even get those little socks you can’t even see in shoes, he wears normal socks pulled up. Ugh, it looks retarded. So he ended up buying these sneaker type shoes but they are nice, and he swore he wouldn’t wear socks so we came to a compromise. hehe I got the cutest blue clogs for $9.99, I was so chuffed with that deal! I mean when I do the conversion into Euros, those shoes cost less than a meal at MacDonalds!
We were going to go see Punisher last night but for some reason it wasn’t playing just on the one night. We are going to go see it Wednesday instead.. So since we couldn’t see that we drove into Sydney and rented The Italian Job then stopped at the Tasty Treat for hot fudge sundays. We came back and watched the movie, mom and dad both fell asleep.. which was funny considering we rented the movie for them to watch and Xander and I had already seen it. It was good enough to watch again though, thankfully.
Today we are just chilling out at home, then this evening we are going in to my cousin Brenda’s place. We’re going to watch my cousin Leanne’s wedding on video and eat some pizza and gab. Leanne got married last year while I was still in Holland, so I couldn’t make it to the wedding. My father was the master of ceremonies at the wedding too so that should be funny to see.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my friend Jon.. or, former friend I guess you could say. I really wish I wouldn’t though, I hate thinking that I’m putting so much thought into someone who probably has forgotten I even exist. We were like best friends and then one day *WHAM* that was it.. I guess that’s what I get for having taken online friendships so seriously. I thought he was different though, we had planned to meet up and hang out and everything. Him and Xander got along great and probably would have in RL as well I think. I always imagined him to be one of those people I’d always keep in touch with, but I guess I was wrong about that too. He said so many mean things when we stopped talking, I mean I know I’m difficult as hell but he made it sound like being a friend to me was like hell on earth. Not a nice thing to hear from someone you really care about.. especially when you really didn’t see it coming. I try to look back and figure out where I really went drastically wrong, there are times I remember being sooo difficult with him.. I always assumed he knew me well enough to realize it was anger and frustration that had nothing to do with him and to step back and let it blow over. Maybe he was really taking it all in and bit by bit it pushed him away. I can understand him getting mad at me, screaming at me, being angry with me and telling me off.. but to cut off our friendship completely left me completely at a loss. Ah well, I guess I can sit here all day and try to figure him out and why he did what he did, but it won’t change the fact that we’ll just never speak again. I will just have to keep reminding myself that if he’d do that, than I haven’t really lost anything at all.. as he never was a friend to begin with.
Crap, now look .. I went and made everything all deep and depressing! I’m going to think happy thoughts about cool new cheap shoes again.. man, what a deal!
