Moving On…

Well after a lot of thought this weekend and a lot of discussing it with hubby, I decided to stop working at the call center.   The work was just far too unpleasant and while I loved working again and meeting people at work, the job itself just wasn’t worth it.

I didn’t quit full on.  That’s the beauty of that job, you can come and go as you please.  I just stopped working.  If I want to return in a month, two months or two years I’ll be able to.  I explained to the people at work what my situation is and that I want to try something else for a while and they were cool with it and told me I’d be welcome back if I decide I want to return at some point.  So at least I have that option open and I know that I can go back if I’m in a pinch and desperate enough.

For a long time I’ve been tossing around the idea of starting my own small business from home.  I’ve thought about it and then tucked it away, mainly because I wasn’t sure where or how to start, or if it would even work.   After all these years I don’t have a lot of confidence when it comes to these things.  That’s something I’m going to have to get over in a hurry.

I’ve spoken to Xander a lot about my ideas and he thinks it could really work if I put the effort into it.  I think so too but then I get plagued with thoughts about if it doesn’t work and what I’ll do if it’s an utter and complete failure.   It’s a terrible way to think and he scolds me for it all the time, for worrying about it failing before I even try.   I wish I could go back to whenever I became so negative and do something to prevent it from happening.   He helps me with this a lot though and is so supportive.  He has a lot more faith in me than I have in myself at the moment and I love him for that.

So you are probably wondering what it is I’m going to be doing (or maybe not if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, as I’ve mentioned this before).  I’m going to try to sell pet beds (rat / ferret hammocks, play tubes etc) like I said before.  Also, I’m going to try making some simple baby quilts to sell on the side.  Basically, I’ll be crafting for a living… I’m going to try a few different thing and see where I have the most success and stick with that.   I enjoy it and it’s something I can do from home on my own time and my own terms, which is what I need.

There’s still a lot to figure out, but I’m going to start small and make a few things to sell and take it from there.   I’ve been complaining for so long about not having anything do that I enjoy and my passions are animals and crafts… so it makes sense to combine the two and see if I can do something with it.  Wish me luck!