Tag Archives: Depression

Last month I wrote an update on what the current situation is in regards to the fertility treatments.  In short, I have had six rounds of IUI (artificial insemination) with no luck, now I need to take a break to lose a further 15-20 kilos before we can start treatments again. I was a bit worried about how it was …

Wow, this one isn’t dark or anything. Good grief. I’d be lying if I said there weren’t times where I thought of just giving up.  I had some pretty dark times when I first moved here. Having dropped everything back in Canada to come here and falling desperately in love with my husband, the thought of leaving and going home …

Over the years I’ve had a lot of issues with seasonal depression.  Not something I’ve ever suffered from in Canada, but it hit me quick and hard here in the Netherlands.   I wasn’t expecting it but it happened, and it continued to happen for the past 10 years.  Granted, for the first half of that time I was often quite …

It’s 5:48am and I’m awake. Well, awake might be a bit of a stretch but I’m out of bed. I got out of bed for yucky girl reasons I’d explain but I fear it would make the boys never come back. It sucks being one of those people who can’t get up and go back to bed. If I have …

It’s 2006, how the hell did that happen. I moved to NL in 1999, that sounds like forever ago, but feels like it was just last year. That’s how much has really gone on in my life since I moved here. Sad huh? I have about 7 months worth of experiences all stretched across almost 7 years and all the …

Whoever says to think of a “Happy Place” when you’re feeling crap must be a fucking idiot. I tried that yesterday, which was an upsetting and frustrating day, and I just got more upset because I’m not in the happy place! I’ve been in the “Bad Place” mentally for the last few weeks, I’m not sure what has triggered it …

I really wish I had some honest and true friends I could talk to who wouldn’t judge, or try to tell me how easy things are when they aren’t. Who aren’t too wrapped up with their own lives to remember to say hello or get in touch. Someone who will just listen and be there… and make me feel like …