Canadutch
Wow this is the earliest I’ve written yet, but I’m in the mood so lets just go with it. Last night we went to bed early and there was a lot of moaning and groaning. No, not the kind you’d probably imagine… More like “It’s so hot! *Moan*” and “Don’t touch me! *Groan*”. Yeah, not exactly a romantic evening but at least we both managed to sleep. It did cool off considerably overnight so that helped. The forecast says it’s going up to 26 today, which isn’t quite as bad as 36. It will have to do!
So anyway last night I had the weirdest dream. I was dreaming about this guy I knew once, who I had a relationship with. Girls, you’ll all know the kind of guy I’m talking about. An attractive guy who really knows it and thinks that he’s doing you some kind of favor by being with you? Yeah, well that explains this guy pretty much exactly. He looked good, but was pretty damaging mentally. He would say things like “If you cut your hair all off you’d be ugly” and “Well you’re not exactly my dream woman” WHILE we were together! Looking back now I honestly can’t see what I saw in him other than that he was pretty attractive. There were things I didn’t like about him too but I never said them. Like, he was shorter than any guy I’ve ever been with and although he thought he was quite built, he was pretty small for a guy. Ok ok so I’m getting off track! I had this dream last night that I went to his place, not his place that I remember but some really nice house like rich people would live in. He was showing it off and being all proud of it while I sort of walked around wondering what the hell I was doing there.
I can’t remember what exactly happened in the dream the whole way through but I remember something happened and there was shooting, and I was really scared. People were getting shot and I grabbed this big rifle type of gun and when I tried to shoot at someone, the damn trigger fell off! Figures.
When everything calmed down it turned out that I was spending the night there at his house. So I got undressed and was laying on the bed, we were starting to make out but I remember thinking “What am I doing here, this isn’t FUN!” yet I stayed and for some reason still was seeking his approval. His phone rang and he was standing on the bed, I was laying on my side and just waiting. I was thinking, why am I laying on my side, my belly is so unattractive in this pose. I didn’t move though, but then I noticed him looking down and he started mouthing to me about how ugly my belly looked and was pointing and laughing etc. I was really frustrated and I can’t remember what I did then.
So then the next thing I remember was that he was getting ready because he had to leave to go somewhere, because of whatever was said on that phone call. I was glad to see him go but was still acting all into him and saying I’d miss him etc. I was sitting on the toilet having a pee while he was preening and he made some knd of comment about me, I can’t remember what. Then I said something along the lines of “Well, we won’t see each other for months. I can diet in that time if you can make your dick bigger”. Then when I looked at him, he was fat! Wtf?! He was all insecure and asking me what I meant, was his dick small, and getting in this big panic. I realized then how pathetic he was and got my sneakers on and left for my morning walk. Then I woke up.
Wierd huh? I woke up feeling great, to be honest. I’m not sure why… maybe somehow all these years later I realized just how NOT worth it he was, and how he really wasn’t someone who was in a position to make me feel bad about myself. He was this short, obnoxious, concieted man who really did nothing for me at all. Wow.. what a revelation. Oh, and he really did have a small penis… I just never had the heart to tell him that, even when he took it upon himself to point out my flaws. Guess that makes me the bigger person in more than just ass size!
Ok I don’t really have any other news than that. Give me a break it’s only 7am! I did do my walking this morning though, ugh the back of my socks were bloody from my new sneakers mangling the back of my ankle/heel. What a trooper I am! *grins* I think I might go back to bed now.. getting up at 5:30am is insanity.
