Canadutch
Man, what a world we live in. Am I the only one who thinks about the world and how fucked up it really is? OK so I don’t think about it all the time, actually I try to avoid thinking about it at all. I don’t read the paper, I don’t watch the news, I’m certainly not glued to CNN like Xander and other people I know are. Does that make me blissfully ignorant or downright stupid? Who knows…So what brought on that little blurb you’re probably wondering. Well I’m going to tell you, be patient. You know anything interesting I have to say comes with a good few paragraphs of blabber, I just wouldn’t be me otherwise :P Ok ok no seriously! Today I was reading a thread on a Photography community I belong to on Orkut, and it had a link to This Website.
How are we meant to feel after reading that? Seriously.. Who couldn’t be disgusted by the state of affairs in the world these days, especially in America. I remember a time when everyone wanted to move to the United States. As a Canadian girl nothing was more appealing or exciting than thoughts of moving to New York, California, etc. Now I honestly don’t know if I could even be forced to move there. As much as they have, the power, money, excitement and everything else that once made that country appealing, there’s so much more now that puts me off it. I find the thought of living in the US scary and this story has made it even less appealing because I don’t believe this is as bad as it gets. When fear sets into people, they do strange things and people act in ways they might not normally. Unfortunately some people (like the cops in question) use it to their advantage to give them a reason to be aggressive or possibly act out on their own personal thoughts and opinions. Man, people sure do suck…
In other crappy news, my great-aunt Pearly had her surgery yesterday. She’s 82 years old and had to have a part of her bowel removed because they found a mass in there. After removing it yesterday they discovered that the tumor was Cancer. Yeah, what a shock… I mean it’s not like her entire family died of it or anything. Here I was writing about her on my family page and saying how she’s as healthy as a horse, and will probably live to be 1000, and next thing. WHAM!! Cancer. I am SO fucking sick of Cancer, it’s ripped through our family like a brush fire and I hate it. I mean, I really hate it. My mother tried to make it sound alright. Saying oh she’ll still be here when you come back next year, but how could she possibly know that? They have no idea if the cancer has spread and they aren’t giving her any treatments because of her age. Apparently she wouldn’t be able to handle the treatments. I guess all I can do is hope it doesn’t come back but I’d be unrealistic if I thought I had much longer left with her anyway. I should be thankful that I at least got to see her when I was home in May.
.. but wait! Not all is bad in the world!
Last night I got up at about 1:30am after I couldn’t sleep and me and Xander were bickering. I came to my laptop and who did I FINALLY find online but my friend Chris from Toronto! He was my best best friend when I lived back there. We met when I was working for GE and got on like a house on fire! Me and my asswipe BF at the time used to get together a lot with him and his ADORABLE girlfriend (NOW Wife and soon to be mother! They are having a boy!) Rhiannon. We would talk all the time and confide in each other, ask each other’s advice about our relationship issues and general life shit. God, it was so awesome to talk to him last night, he had his webcam on and I could see him and Rhiannon. See him laughing and chatting with me just like old times. We’d lost touch for ages and I really hated that, but last night it was like we’d never been apart! God, it was just so great, even if I am as jealous as fucking hell of them still living in Toronto, having a nice new house and a baby on the way! haha I’m most definately not going to lose touch with him again, ever! He told me that I had to tell Xander I was his friend first and I was only on loan to Rotterdam, that they want me back! hehe Oh man, he honestly couldn’t have chosen a better time to resurface.
I love you Chris *MWAH* *MWAH* (Yes you too Rhiannon! *Hug*)
